No One To Look Up To Now

I love you with all my heart
As I grew older
I looked up to you and no other
And now,no one to look up to
Yes we fought everytime
But yo supported me all the time
You are my brother, my best friend and my hero
And you will never be replaced
At night, I miss the loud music
Coming out your room
I miss hearing you come in late at night
I miss how you would make me feel safe
I miss our nonsense arguments
And all wrestling games, just to pass time
I regret all times I yelled at you
'Cause I would always want to be right
And all you tried to do is help me
I wanted to do everything you did
I just wanted to be like you
I miss your bright smile
I miss the way my room would smell of your cologne
I wish I could go back
And tell you exactly how it feels
To live without you
How much I miss being with you
I keep your favorite sweater
And use it everytime I think about you
Like I did when I was little
I will always love you and miss you
No matter how long it's been
Since the day your life came to an end
I miss you, my big brother, JOMAR

With love,
Xiomara Gomez