Dear Dad, I miss you. Why'd God dismiss you?
Need a tissue 'cuz my whole life is an issue
Mom's dyin', tepers flare, bombs flyin'
Tears runnin' down my cheek, is calm cryin'
No sobbin', but focus isn't on science
It's on AIDS effects, not non-bias
I remember when you used to tuck me in
I knew the world, but didn't realize what we in
Death is part of life, some just die faster
Found out you was gone, froze up and cried after
Used to be a quiet kid with shy laughter
That part of me died
After you went to the nursing home
Lost innocence, you was a different man
Whole life changed in an instant
Dad I was spoiled, but I appreciate you
Love you. Dear Dad, why'd God take you?
Why'd God make you, other than to make me?
Why'd God save me? Couldn't infiltrate me
AIDS disease, both parents that raised me
Or when I'm walkin' through the lame town Willi
Guys push up Daisies, girls push up Lilies (Phillies)
Yeah, Dad, I been exposed to it
It's everywhere, even the pros do it
Now you know I go through it, tempted to go do it
But when I'm stressed, I just write mo' music
Might go lose it, I'm like so stupid
Yet so smart, 'cuz I ain't like no dufus
Can be ruthless, but neva' am I truthless
Truth is Dad, I don't know if you knew this
Much talent would come from me rappin'
I think you woulda' had a different first reaction
But if you can see me, are you ashamed J.V.?
'Cuz the pain changed me, red flame angry
But that ain't an excuse, like I hear voices
Positive, I'm positive I'm almost crazy
They know Trey V, Dad I got a name now
Whether it's the insane sound, no James Brown
Big dreams to ride in Rolls-Royces
But that goes back to those choices
I know what I gotta do
But I'm stubborn and uncontrollable, I got a lot of you
Been jumped, been in six one on ones
One time I fought two people but neva' bought a gun
Literally lost innocence 3 months after your death
Write to find the right way, 'cuz hope's not left
Oxygen tank reminds me with every single breathe
That the flames of hell are in my heart
And I am just a guest
I confess to fightin', no warrant for my arrest
Neva' been arrested or cuffed, no bluffin'
Stuffin' my emotions, they turn into anger
Rema add a D, 'cuz the D is for danger
Didn't want to be a stranger, so I wrote you
Love you and miss you like any son supposed to
Neva' called you Johnny, so to J. Vaz
Sincerely,
Your son
Need a tissue 'cuz my whole life is an issue
Mom's dyin', tepers flare, bombs flyin'
Tears runnin' down my cheek, is calm cryin'
No sobbin', but focus isn't on science
It's on AIDS effects, not non-bias
I remember when you used to tuck me in
I knew the world, but didn't realize what we in
Death is part of life, some just die faster
Found out you was gone, froze up and cried after
Used to be a quiet kid with shy laughter
That part of me died
After you went to the nursing home
Lost innocence, you was a different man
Whole life changed in an instant
Dad I was spoiled, but I appreciate you
Love you. Dear Dad, why'd God take you?
Why'd God make you, other than to make me?
Why'd God save me? Couldn't infiltrate me
AIDS disease, both parents that raised me
Or when I'm walkin' through the lame town Willi
Guys push up Daisies, girls push up Lilies (Phillies)
Yeah, Dad, I been exposed to it
It's everywhere, even the pros do it
Now you know I go through it, tempted to go do it
But when I'm stressed, I just write mo' music
Might go lose it, I'm like so stupid
Yet so smart, 'cuz I ain't like no dufus
Can be ruthless, but neva' am I truthless
Truth is Dad, I don't know if you knew this
Much talent would come from me rappin'
I think you woulda' had a different first reaction
But if you can see me, are you ashamed J.V.?
'Cuz the pain changed me, red flame angry
But that ain't an excuse, like I hear voices
Positive, I'm positive I'm almost crazy
They know Trey V, Dad I got a name now
Whether it's the insane sound, no James Brown
Big dreams to ride in Rolls-Royces
But that goes back to those choices
I know what I gotta do
But I'm stubborn and uncontrollable, I got a lot of you
Been jumped, been in six one on ones
One time I fought two people but neva' bought a gun
Literally lost innocence 3 months after your death
Write to find the right way, 'cuz hope's not left
Oxygen tank reminds me with every single breathe
That the flames of hell are in my heart
And I am just a guest
I confess to fightin', no warrant for my arrest
Neva' been arrested or cuffed, no bluffin'
Stuffin' my emotions, they turn into anger
Rema add a D, 'cuz the D is for danger
Didn't want to be a stranger, so I wrote you
Love you and miss you like any son supposed to
Neva' called you Johnny, so to J. Vaz
Sincerely,
Your son